Assalamualaikum everyone...
Yesterday, 2nd Nov 2012, Friday was a very emotional day. Irwan's grandmother passed away after Subuh. I was on my way to work when Irwan called me to tell the news. I was thinking if I should take an urgent leave. Even though, I am not tied with Irwan's family yet, his grandmother was the only grandparent I had after years after both my own grandparents passed away.
I reminisced the moments I had with her. She always held my hands while watching TV and in the car. She will always asked, "Da makan?" and the few mintues later, she asked again, "Da makan?" All her life she thought I'm Irwan's wife. During family gathering, especially Hari Raya, she will asked Irwan, "Kenapa tak bawak Rohani? Mane bini kau?" And she will refer her daughter (Irwan's mom) to me as my mother. In that note, with her around, I always feel I am apart of this family.
Although she had Alzheimer, she will always remember names. Days before she passed away, when Irwan's asked her, "Ingat tak saper Rohani?" She nodded. The next day, during Hari Raya Haji, I was thinking to surprise her with Get Well ballons and teddy bear to cheer up her day. Little that I know, when I entered the ward, she was not responding. She could not open her eyes and even said a word. When I told her, "Nenek, Rohani datang ni..." She moved her hand and stuttered. I'm glad that she still remembers me.
When the doctor inform all of us to be prepared for the worst, in my heart, I just knew if that happens, it's going to be on Friday. And it did happened.
Thus, when I reached to work later that day, I demand for urgent leave. I don't care if they grant my leave or not, I still want to go because when she was alive, she will always asked "Where's Rohani?" That question lingers in my mind, repeatedly like she is asking it right now.
I managed to leave the office early, just in time to see her. Everyone in the room were in tears and I tried to hold back as tough as I can be. I followed the rest of the family till we buried her, peacefully, at the age of 84.
Alhamdullilalh, I managed to send her last goodbye.
I am saddened that she does not get to see me and Irwan tied the knot. But I will make this come true, insyaAllah.
May her soul be in peace in Syurga. Amin.
Al-Fatehah.
Signing off,
Rohani
