A month has passed and I still miss them so badly. I miss their laughter, their kecoh-ness the gossip, their whining, their jokes, their work ethnic, the dinner we had after work, our night shift 'food-feast' at our desk & the list goes on. I cannot come to terms that they had left, leaving me and only 4 of us. By next week, 2 of us will be leaving.
A day before labour day, we were all called to the meeting room. We knew this news will be coming but almost all of us were in denial, hoping to hear the good news. Unfortunately, the reality turns out to to be the opposite. Half of us have to be retrench due to migration our dept to other country in order to save cost - so called downsizing. Although I stayed, I wasn't that happy or relived either. Instead, it makes me feel guilty when I saw some of them cried upon hearing that that day will be their last day.
On the last day, it was the first time ever we had lunch together as a team. We all tried to make ourselves happy and enjoy our day but deep in side, I know some were worried if they ever will find another job in this competitive market. When I and the rest of us who were still 'save' in the company went back to work, it does felt the same way anymore. When I look at those empty chairs and their things that were left behind, I just could not continue my day.
We were transferred to another customer service team which monitor Singapore alarms. We know that team weren't was hype as us. 80% of the time, they were silent during their own work. It's been a month I am working in this new team and I don't like it at all. I had zero motivation to come to work anymore and had the urge to MC. I can get along with the team members but there's isn't any open conversation at all. These is one of the reason why one of us decided to quit. The work is full of boredom - few calls, few signals and 90% of the time I surf the internet. Not that I don't do work at all but there's really nothing to do.
Furthermore, I dislike how they work - no teamwork, weak leadership. I tend to argue with the leaders because they really does not know how to lead properly. What's the point of working 7 years in the company and becoming a leader when you do not know how to lead? I hate it when they do not give straight cut answer and keep beating around the bush which left me confuse.
I heard that my previous supervisor had tender which makes me feel even more demotivated. She is the most reliable kind-hearted and understanding supervisor I ever work with - She always tried to protect us. She had help me convinced the HR dept to convert me to Full-time instead of contract. I am very grateful for that.
Been working in this company for 2 years now & my perspective about this work has drastically changed. I always felt that this was my dream job - Good pay, great environment, flexible working hours and awesome colleagues. But everything changed a month ago - I realize that the real reason I do well at work and had invitation is because of who I worked with.
Am in a confusion whether to quit this job because I have to save $ for my wedding and a house. I can't afford to be jobless or had lesser salary that what I had now. I have to think about it.......
Good night,
Rohani
