Job and savings

Salam all,

I've just convert to perm after my 4 months contract ended with agency last Monday. And I totally regret making that decision because of the 3 digit pay and the stressful over work load. However, at the same time, I need this job because I have to help 2nd sis to support my family financially. And I really felt like stabbing the one member who sits in the same roof with us and doing nothing but read books and surf the net, which I have to pay every month, including my dad's phone bill and fixed line. That don't include my own phone bill in which I am looking forward for the contract to end next month. Nevertheless, I am fortunate that I have 2 tuition jobs that total bring home pay to 4 digits.

School will start in two months time and I will be working 4 times per week. Thank goodness, i have at least a day to escape from the stressful daylight nightmare at work. And I am so going to talk to my bos when he came back next week to negotiate about my pay. But bos rarely talk to me just because he really suck at English. Imagine I have to take down meeting minutes when 80 percent of the time, he speaks in Mandarin? The next meeting, he decided to replace my task to a my chinese colleague.

I envy Irwan because he likes his job and his pay is way higher than mine. He has already start saving for marriage and mine still zero. I finally had paid my school fees which I saved and now I need to save for laptop, then marriage. I need this job till jan 2010 and im off to start searching for a job I enjoy doing instead of a job I ''have to''. If that free-loader member work, I do not need to continue this job after my contract. I am very mad, it's been more than 6 months, she ''jual anggur'' without even putting an effort to find a job.

Right now, I miss Irwan. He's been working very hard so that he could save more and get married earlier than expected. While I... still stuck financially even though I put more than enough effort and hard work in my job. A company full of problematic issues unsolved.

I realized that in my work, I solved problem but I do not know what is the root or cause of the problem. When I asked around, all they gave is ''dont tell the real problem to the customer, just make up one or cover it up..'' I seriously feel that this company wont last long if this continue. How can the company survived if all they do is running away from problems? Be realistic.

Im off right now..


Rohani