I'm so bored in the office. Feeling so RP. And I guessed most of my previous classmates knows that I always talk to the computer. And I did it, in the office. One day before boss left taiwan, finally he talk to me about work.
And I said, "Okay la..".
"What do you mean by okay?", he asked.
CT: I mean I am contented but not satisfied.
Bos: Okay, what is satisfaction mean to you?
CT: I just want to get out of this office. I'm so bored.
Bos: What do you want to do?
CT: Err.. explore the world outside this room. Meet new people. Talk to people.
Bos: Like sales? I felt that sales and admin work are the same. You get bored too doing sales. Coz everyday you meet client, present, once done.. go back to office.
CT: No... once you get to meet people, you learn something. At least, I get to talk to someone. Right now, if I talk to the computer, there's no interaction. Haha..
Bos: Yeah, true...true. So you want to do sales? I can give that position to you.
CT: If I do sales, who is going to help Vinna? It's okay, I shall wait till Isabelle come back after maternity leave.
I just don't like the feeling of the gap between the top management and the general position. That's how I am not being opened. Only with my bos, I don't know why, I am just being very honest.
CT: So, how it feels like to have a business?
Bos: Yeah, okay.
CT: Aren't you very happy?
Bos: Yeah, but have a lot of responsibilites.
CT: But you have freedom. You can choose whether you want to come to the office or not. And your staffs are helping to you do the work while you can enjoy yourself. This is what I want. My dream.
Bos: Really, what type of business do you want?
And so the conversation goes on...
We only see bos for 1 week in every 2 months. The rest, he go back to this homeland. That's what I want. I hate to work work work... for something I had no interest about.
While tutoring is another thing. I so loveee to teach no matter how notorious the student is and how much they made me sooo mad at them. So me, the emotion challenge keeps me going. I am very happy that my primary 1 student have all A's for all the 3 subjects. And the primary 3 yet to know the results. But I am soo worried for the pri 3 student.
She lives in a big spacious apartment, have more than 3 maids and her pocket money is $5 every day. I remembered when I was in pri 3, my pocket money is half of that. But when it comes to emotional support, I can clearly see that her parents are not motivating her enough. I had never seen her dad and when I asked her, she said her dad is working overseas. Her mum, I have no idea. I only see her grandma, cousins, aunties, uncles and brother..
And her attitude is very challenging to handle. I find that parents should not push all the reponsibilities to the teacher/tutor for the studies. Educations always start from home, why ended it when they reach school? A baby learn how to walk, at home. They learn to speak the first word, at home.
Although my parents never force me to study, I know I can do well and if I don't, I know I can do well in another thing. When I asked the student, do you really want this tuition or are you force to do so? She told me, her dad told her to do so. And her dad is no where visible at home. And when I asked her, what are you good at? "I don't know", she answered. I guessed, she have not found her passion yet.
I know I am a repeat student and I am saying all about this. I repeat not because I am lack of emotional support. I just know there's something more impt I can do best rather than going to school. And I take full responsibilities for my failure.
Alright then, I shall end with this meaningful lirik from Padi: Jika engkau bersedih
Jika engkau bersedih ...pastilah ini ada maksudnya
Andai engkau bisa tertawa... seharusnya bahagia
Dan jika karma itu ada...berpeganglah atas hatimu
Karena kau tak akan bisa...mengabaikan takdirmu
Tak perlu engkau terus bersedih
Seperti dulu melemahkan niatmu
Sudahi saja tangismu
Tetapkan hati berjuang bersama lagi
Tahukah engkau bahwa... cinta itu adalah anugerah
Sama seperti adanya... hidup kita hidup ini
Mengertikah engkau bahwasanya
Gagal itu bukanlah kekalahan
Selama kau memahami apa... yang menguji hatimu
Tak perlu lagi engkau bersedih
Seperti dulu melemahkan niatmu
Semoga bertemu kembali
Tetapkan hati berjuang bersama lagi
Tak usa h lagi bersedih...
Tak perlu terus bersedih...
Tak usa h lagi bersedih...
Tak perlu terus bersedih...
Best regards,
Rohani
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