Impossible to wash away...

Assalamualaikum....

Mom's has been reminding me to buy new clothes since last week and she gave me the money already. I promise her I will buy it on Monday, which is yesterday. But I end up watching movie instead of fulfilling my promise. Mom was quiet pissed-off, she said, "CT ni, orang suruh gi beli baju..gi melencong tengok wayang plak..". I just laughed.

X-Men is great. But still, I prefer Over The Hedge. Watched it with Xin Yu and CJL. Actually, we are supposed to watch it last Friday but Xin Yu was something on. CJL supposed to lend me money to watch the movie *shameless, i know. Im broke okay..haha..eat choc almost everyday..* After the school ended, I asked him in MSN again, "CJL, u sure u can lend me money? U have enough or not later?" I was shocked by his replied, "Ya (showing an angry icon)"

So, I was pissed off by his answered and said I dont wanna go. It's like I force him to lend me. Like what sey. Skali, he type, "F*** la". Man, I really thought his decent boy will never say that word. And I rarely heard people say backwords to me. Then, I looked at him, thought he was crying. Khakhaa.. he was actually watching a show la. Alamak..

I apologised and take back my words. Three of us planned to watch the movie at 5.10pm. Unfortunately, there's only single seat left. So we are willing to stay 2 hours longer and purchased the tix at 7pm.

We went to Mac and I saw my classmate, Fattasha. She becoming prettier..and has that sweet face. Xin Yu bought popcorn and share it with us. I was sitting in the middle of them and during that movie, CJL keep talking to me about what will happened next. My eyes fixed on the screen and just nod to whatever he said. Haha..

On the previous Saturday, at 1plus in the morning..someone called my house. It's a guy voice. He wants to speak to me. But I simply have no idea who he is. He asked 3 times, if I remembered him. I think hard, I almost forgot his voice. There was a long silent over the fone, I was freaking shocked he called me after he left me just like that last year...making assumptions that I don't have feelings for him anymore. There's times he asked for patch up and it's a NO-NO to me....because during that time, someone just make me fall in love again, he shared with me the laughter and the meaning of accepting someone u will never dreamt of. I had never imagined that he's the next one to walk away from my life. So, the time the previous one asked to be together again, I told him every good things about the other one. Thus, last week, he asked me how me and that guy. I always answered, "We are still friends, great friends...". I'm not sure if I'm lying to myself..but I just can't help it although it's been months..I just tell myself, there's thousands of people out there who suffer worse than me. And that's when I started to do volunteering jobs, if they still can smile for the fate they get, why can't I? I move on..but in my heart, I know you are still there..Maybe the time is just not right.. Maybe..

Wassalam,
Rohani

PS: It's impossible to wash away that feelings I had with you..