During my secondary and early poly days, I used to read at least 3 books per month. It's was one of my gateway. Gateway from stress and reality. When I start working, the reality hits me hard that I have no time to read to escape it.
Now, since my job is full of ample time and bored, I start to read again. I've always love watching movies that is adapted from Nicholas Sparks books. However, not all books are made into a movie.
I've found this book at a library:
And I totally fell in love with it once I start reading the first page. It's a sequel to the Notebook, which was made into a movie. The Wedding is about how a man struggle to express his emotions to his wife of 30 years and felt that they have grown apart. Now, he's trying his best to be romantic and open like how they used to be when they date.
Reading this book, makes me ponder. During the start of relationship, we can talk anything we want even a small issue like 'I accidentally hit the drink and it spill my dress' and both will laughed it off. We are more expressive, more talkative and can chat for hours. I have a friend who always talked to her fiance most of the time, even during work about anything and everything over the phone even after more than 5 years of being together. And I asked her, ''Why do you call your fiancé when you have went out with him few hours ago?'' And she asked, ''Why can't I?''
I told her, sometimes I wish I was like her. Like our conversation will last for hours but I literally have no topic to talk about. The usually question that we partner will ask each other will be, ''How are you? How's your day? Have you eaten? What do you do today?'' No, I'm never get bored to question or answered to this question but sometimes I wished it will be more than that.
I asked my married colleague about this issue. He's been married for more than a decade and have a child. He said, on the phone we don't talk that much but when you are with him/her face to face, there's many things to talk about. It's just who you are. It's true. When I go out on the date with my
fiancé, we talked a lot compared to talking over the phone. It relief me that I wasn't the only one who is feeling this way.
In the book, it also taught me that don't take things for granted - try to be more appreciative. The older we get, the more we tell ourself, 'It's okay that we don't say I love you to each other any more as long as 'm still with him and taking care of the family.' Once the children become adult and moved out of the house, you are back to square one. What I meant is the awkward feeling in conversation and saying I love you just like stranger although you lived in the same house. Even holding hands. My parent are just like this. And I don't want to be like this.
Next month, on November 19th, would be our 6 years anniversary and 1 year of engagement anniversary. I'm glad that we are together and blessed to have you by my side all this years (: I love you.
Signing off,
Rohani
