Where are my social skills?

Assalamualaikum...

Since mid of last year, I found it hard for me to get along with new people very well. I can get along with them but I felt that I just don't click with those people. Most likely because we don't have anything in common. Especially when it left with one person and me. A one-to-one conversation maybe difficult for me to start. I just can't find any topic to talk about. To laugh with them is even harder. My classmates are my classmates but when it comes to mingle with them like going shopping or an outing, I will feel akward unless there's at least someone whom I can click on well. So does my other neutral friends.

And if I finally can click with them, it will be too late then. Like W14L peeps. Only the last month before Year 1 ends, I feel I am a part of them. So it took months for me to really get close to someone and show my true colours. I'm even worse with my voluntary friends. I save their numbers and IDs in my handphone. However, when they sms/call me, I will asked "Huh? Saper ni?" Padahal, I saved their numbers! And even they said their names, I still said, "Tak kenal lah.." or "Lupe..". I don't mean to be rude but I seriously forget who are they until I meet them face-to-face all over again. I'm sorry.

The number of friends who I can get well with, I mean the ones who I can asked to teman me to go somewhere are less than 10. Moreover, the number are getting lesser and lesser these past few months. Most of them are busy with their studies. And when I found somebody who I can clicked with, are always the opposite sex of me. It maybe nice in the first place but I always think twice before I go to far. I have to keep my distance from them since I am attached. Or else, it wouldn't feel nice.

Before Irwan was enlisted, when I want to go somewhere the first person who entered my mind was of course him. However, since he is always stuck far away from this small island, I had trouble finding someone (a female friend) to replace him because I admit I hang on to him too often. Usually, I ended up at home, with family members or go out alone.

I'm not trying to sound sympathetic. But I know I used to get along with people in a click or probably less than a month. Now, I tend to be a quiet person.. more to an attentive listener. Hehs! During the holidays, most of the time I'm on the phone with him. My mum always said that it is like 24 hours we are stuck together. And his army room-mates teased us that we are like the never-ending cerita Sembilu. Hahas.. except the dramatic parts in that drama that we've never acquire.

Conclusion: Where are my social skills? Hmm..

Since last year, I had many adventurous opportunities. Start off with fun and enjoyable voluntary work, especially with kids. I miss them alots! Campaigns and free high-class dinner.. chey wah. Work - Watsons, Giant, Telemarketer.. and now, a part-time job I always wanted: Tutor. Alhamdulillah.. First time took part in a competition among schools: Pesta Pantun. Great! Qiamulai at mosque with more than 100 people... etc.etc.etc.

So what's my point: Have faith and be appreciative =)

Take care.
Bye
Wassalam,
Rohani