To someone...

Assalamualaikum..

I'm so freakin tired..my feet are aching. I start working aldy.. @ Watson, WestMall. Packing things in the morning/afternoon and at nite, helpin out the cashier to put things inside the plastic. Stand up for 6 hours man!! Honestly, I don't really like the working evironment, it's not that friendly sey..everyone do their own things. But I am glad that Hidayah is working with me today and tomorrow. However, the manager is like trying to separate us, me working upstairs while she work at the temp tent for Watsons. Aperak!
I prefer talking to the customers..heh~

4 more days to go and I will break free from that tiring and boring temporary job. Afterwards, next Friday and Sunday, Hidayah and I will work @ Giant, Parkway Parade. Thanks to Dzel recommendation.

Oh well, tmr I can't go back to sec school to visit my dearest teachers. Huhu.. I've just missed ice-skating date with my classmates yesterday. I bet they have a great time w/o me. Wanna cry sey.... Nevermind, hopefully and pray hard that I can make it for class chalet.

To someone,

I can’t take this anymore. Trying my best to put this feeling away. It’s impossible for me see you in another way. Aren’t we just friends? I don’t even bother what others would say.

Fear of losing you keeps haunting me. Men just don’t realize how women really feel. Don’t ask me out again. You are just giving me another false hope. I can’t trust you completely since there are others still running after you. Accept them, can’t you? Although I don't know why I feel jealous about it.

Can we be just like we used to? Rewind back to the past where I really treat you as my friend, not more than what it is now. I don't think you understand the uncertainty playing in my heart at this moment because you never had a girl before, even though you are such a sweet guy.

Leave me alone. Stop telling me to TAKE CARE. Ignore me. Don’t keep worrying about me. And this feeling will die. I’m okay. I’m just confused.

Talking to the wall…
Hopefully it understands me than you do.
And I do appreaciate you. Really.

No, I am not sending it to someone. I am just letting out how I feel. It feels good you know. And seriously, I don't want someone to know. He's my friend. He will always be...

The feeling of in love at first, it great. You feel that there's nothing you need to worry because you know someone do care and loves you afterall. However, at the time ticks, you feel afraid to take the first step as the uncertainty of the future hunts you..or, maybe the past. You either lose him or regret choosing him.

I'll give you a bonquet of fresh roses except in the centre it is made of plastic. I give you a small card and it says: "My love for you will die when the last petal drops..."
You know it is impossible because plastic rose will never wilt.
- Extracted from a malay book 'Adam & Hawa'

It is to someone, as a friend.

We are young, still a long way to go. Oh well, right now, I'll just focused on my studies and part-time working life..yeah.

Bye
Wassalam,
Rohani