I choose to be..

Assalamualaikum..

Today's lesson was damn boring. Why this module always related to something I had never study before? This topic was more to Add Math. Don't understand a single thing. Even when presentation time, I was extremely blur. I think gonna get C this time.

I took an hour nap during the break and was woken up by an awful voice. I was wondering who's sickening voice it is coz he was singing like as if he owns the classroom. I was shocked that it was actually CJL. He was sitting at the same table as me and still can sing on top of his lings without taking into consideration that I was sleeping. If nice voice nevermind, but his..aiyoh! Hahaha...

I was so freaking shocked when Denise asked me if I like 'J'. Because she heard that I like him and said they (whoever they were) planned to make me and him together. I didnt even stated in my previous entry that I like him, did I? He's cute, he's nice, clever in ukhrawi & duniawi but dream on that I will get a guy like him. So impossible. I'm sure there's other girls chasing for him too.. who won't?

Gloria asked me that same question also. She said most of my classmates read my blog and they thought I like 'J'. No, never. I praised cute guys but I won't go running after them. I'm liddat lah, don't get me wrong.

Sometimes, I take time to think..in the bus..in the mrt..while waiting for a friend.. I think..I think..why can't I just move on? Man, it's still him.. the first time we met was at City Hall. Whenever I pass there, the memories flashes back.. Gosh, I miss those days. We went to Clarke Quay, by the sea, we talked and laugh non-stop. I can't forget about him because I simply can't forget those feelings I had when Im with him.... I simply can't..

A friend told me, "This is what u choose to be. You can move on, but u choose to stuck in the past"... Izzit worth it?

I had went out with a few guys before.. just to forget about him. But it doesn't work out because I end up talking about him to them. So I just stopped as it's making me feel so stupid. There's smth about him that I can't find in others... It's just him.

Rohani!! Wake up!!

Whatever it is, Im not blaming on him. It's me.. it's just me..

Wassalam,
Rohani

Dear classmates,

I know you guys read my blog. Thanks man. Wo ai ni....hehe