Im suffocating in MI

Assalamualaikaum..

Im not doing well now. Being in MI..is a nightmare place for me. Eeee....dont like that school!! Can't find any 'mats' there..phew..! So many cute charming guys but their attractiveness faded by their young age through my eyes. There's some minahs there. Most of the girls wants to catch everyone attention, esp to the boys. Ah ya.. small kids. Haha.. Majority of them are one year younger than me. I labled them as 'budak-budak'.

I dont mixed with the malays in MI...expect one or two la..tapi itu pun setakat teman berbual, bukan teman tuk bergaul. Most of the malays there are trying to act speaking sey.. I talked in malay, they replied in english. Good eng nevermind la.. ni tersongsang plak. The Orientation seems to be for the immature kids. I hate the dancing part. Was forced to dance with this cute malay guy. I donno the dance steps because I didnt came for the practices. Eeee..Im not the type who dance infront of public. Never!

I was so so malu to dance with a guy. He's very good at dancing and unlike me, his partner..very corrupt at it. But he was a gentleman, he taught me what to do. I was in a great shocked that we have to hold hands. I hand become so sweaty.. U know, how much I dislike hanky-panky stuff. How can I let a guy whom I didnt even know to touch me? Eeeww. Kalau skejap tak pe la..ni, dia pergi squeeze my hands. Ai yah, nasib dier 'budak kecik' lagik.. kalau tak, naas kang..haha!

There's game. Stooopid game. The one where you have to sit on a person's lap. Kalau perempuan dengan perempuan tak pe la. Ni aku kena duduk kat atas peha lelaki. Everyone did that but I didnt. I dont even touch his skin. Somemore he's a malay guy. I hope he understand my own tatasusila.

There, I dont talked to any of the guys...unless they asked important questions la. I feel that MI is certainly not for me..too kebaratan and too kongkong our mind. Doesnt allowed us to show our creativity. I told many of the students there, "Im not going to stay here so long. Hope if my appeal to poly is successful, then I will surely dump this school"

It is just not me when Im in MI. I cant be like the MI students.. Im suffocating there. In sec sch, i had never ever been late. But in MI, for all the days I came late..not just one or two minute..tapi 15-25 mins. Haha. Then, skrg aku da pandai cabut skola. When Sumita and I wanted to go out of the sch gate, the security guard stopped us. So lied that we have to go home, but he doesnt allowed us coz we do not have the permission slip by the teacher. Then, we tried to cabut by the back gate but the auntie canteen told us that there's camera there.

Kalau tak de camera, aku dan Sumita btol2 ada niat nak panjat gate sey. Instead of going back to our OG, we lepak at the canteen for one hour. Then sembunyi2 masuk OG kite balik. I went to my OG for the sake of attendance. Lepas da mark attendance, I went to Sumita's OG.

Im eager to get my posting results. If not, I really gonna die at MI. When I asked the seniors there how's MI. They answered, 'OK la..'. I told them not to lied. Baru dorang ckp benar yang dorang menyesal choose MI, poly is much more better. See? Even the current students there feel the same way as me.

I cant imagined myself im MI for 3 years. Yucks! I hope Allah give me the chance to go poly.. *pray hard*

Wassalam,
Rohani